Judgemental People (CC-1)

It’s hard when people judge you by what one of your sisters is known about and yet you still try telling people that you aren’t like that, and they just don’t simply understand. No one really understands what a person like me can go through. People think I’m a nasty person but yet they don’t know anything a person like me can keep hidden. I’m not the type of person that talks about personal things but sometimes I wish I could talk to people about it so they could understand.  But when I actually do talk to someone about it, the only thing they can say is “I’m sorry” because they really don’t understand anything. It’s not that I’m trying to get people to feel bad for me, because I don’t need sympathy for people but it’s the fact that some people need to understand what I go through on a daily basis. I’m slowly starting to realize I can’t change the way people act towards me, but I know the only thing I can do at this point is make myself seem like a better person and be able to hold back my feelings without people knowing everything that is going on. It’s nice having people to talk about things with, but it’s hard to explain to them your feelings towards it because they want you to do things you don’t want to do because it’s not something a family member would do. It’s hard supporting my sister when I can’t trust or even try having trust in her because she always ends up letting people down in my family. You try being strong for other people but at the same time you’re defiantly at your breaking point and it’s just something I don’t want to deal with anymore.