Donezo (BB-1)

After dealing with this for so many years, I came to the point where I just give up on everything that involves her. Once you think everything might be getting better, it just takes a complete 360 and everything changes. You try believing them because you want too, but they’ve done everything to make you lose your trust for them. After destroying a family, wouldn’t you want to change for the best? How much more can someone possibly take before they just say they are done and don’t want to deal with it anymore. When you see a family member struggling but you can’t do anything more to try helping them, that is when you have to walk away. Thinking I might finally have gotten away with it since I left for a week, but of course it followed me. There is nothing more I hate then people who are stubborn and selfish. You did this to yourself, so it’s time for you to learn from your mistakes. If the person doesn’t want help, you can’t force them to get help. It’s their own decision and not yours anymore. Then again, it isn’t a nice feeling to have one of your own family members to be sitting in jail, especially on a holiday. I try feeling bad for her, but I know that she did this herself and she made her own decisions. I wish I could just go into her brain and try fixing whatever she has wrong with her but there’s no more hope for her. You can’t force someone to get better if the only thing on their mind is just figure out a way to get their fix.  Maybe one day she will realize all of the pain she caused and make herself a better person.