Reality (V-2)

It’s really hard to explain a feeling you get when you know something isn’t going to last for much longer. After a while of a relationship and you start realizing things have changed so much that there is really nothing more you can do or even try fixing it because it’s already too far in. Even if you try fixing it, things will never be able to go back to how they used to be. Distance really does put a stain on your relationship because after a while of dealing with it, you start getting sick of it because there is really nothing more you can do. And even when they are home for a weekend and you end up not spending any time with them because they are always busy doing something else. It’s hard to understand that you aren’t their first option when they are yours.  It’s hard for a girl to sit down with a guy and try talking about things when they don’t even bother listening to you. It’s hard to try fixing things when the other person isn’t willing to try either. Everyone tells you that you deserve better, but what’s better when you think this person is the best you can get?  You can try explaining yourself to anyone because no one is willing to listen to what you have to say because it’s literally like talking to a wall at times. Even people you think will actually understand you are people who really don’t care about anything you have to say because they just think you’re dumb. You just wish someone can understand you because you are sick of just sitting there talking to yourself about it. There is really no point in even trying to talk to anyone about it because they just end up looking down on you.